Kit's LiveJournal

No, your eyes are not decieving you... I have actually posted something! =P

As you can probably tell from looking at the date of my last post, it's been a while since I updated my blog, hehe! A belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all!

I think the reason for my late post is because I haven't been feeling too great for some time now, but I'm hoping to change that. For those who don't know already, I managed to get myself a job in December! I'm now working at a medical centre as a receptionist/administrator and I'm really enjoying it. I'm also (finally) going to start my driving lessons on the 12th February! I'm very excited about that, hehe! =D

Not much else has happened since my last entry other than what I've said above... I'n not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing... XD

Well that's pretty much it for this entry, and all that's left is for me to do is to inform you of two changes that are going to happen with my blog from now on:

1) I'm going to start using tags from now on in all my posts.

2) All posts relating to my private life are only going to be viewable by people on my Friends list.

Take care and be good! =)

Kit.

...awakens Kit! =P

Yep, I still alive! It's been over a month since I last posted here... again. I hope everyone's doing all good and well!

So... guess what's happened since I last posted. Absolutely sod all again, hehehe! I'm getting real close to getting a job somewhere which will be a relief! That will, however, mean I have to wake up in the morning! Oh no! XD

I got real bored as I usually do since the last post I made and so I decided to do a few of my random little projects that pop up now and again. I'll put them under a cut so that the screen isn't filled with YouTube videos!

( Clicky here for the projects... )

I know I keep saying it, but I'll try to update my LJ a bit more often, hehe! On a final note, I'll be popping along to the furmeet in Manchester on the 22nd and 23rd of this month. I shall also be keeping a sharper eye out for those people who like to try and tickle me! You know who you are! XD

Many hugs and stuff! =)

Kit.

That's right... the days of being able to call me a lazybutt are over... for now! XD

Hope everyone is doing well this weekend! I'm feeling much better than my last 'meh' post which is all yay! The only negative thing that sticks out since then is that my 5.1 headset decided to just break for no reason and now I have to live with just 2 speakers that I had to get from the retail park because it would be a waste of time having actual 5.1 speakers if asked to turn them down/off every 2 minutes from my parents! =P

I decided to, after a bit of deliberation, pop along to the Liverpool meet yesterday! I was pretty nervous as I wasn't sure how many people were going to be there that I knew, but I made some nice new friends there and everyone was really nice! Unfortunately the fursuit walk had a little bit of bad luck because of the security team on the Albert Dock. As they were obviously not showing their faces they apparently posed a security risk and had to be escorted off the entire dock area as it was privately-owned land! I feel bad for that having happened to them... it must be a little unnerving for them but apparently if they get notified in advance about it happening there shouldn't be an issue so hopefully if the Albert Dock is a venue for any fursuiters next time it should hopefully be able to go ahead without any hassle. Aside from that little incident, however, the day was fantastic! I went to the arcades with a small group and I don't have to mention the 3 letters of the arcade machine that some stuck to like glue now, do I? Hehehe! I ended up heading back around about 8:30pm and although I don't think I'll be going back later today I hope that everyone there has a nice 2nd day! =)

Not too much planned for the time being now but I'll definately be making more of an effort to attend the fuzzlemeets a bit more... it's always nice to add +1 to the crazyness! XD

Take care and enjoy the rest of your weekend! =)

Kit.

Hello to everyone who has stumbled onto this latest post, hehe!

Hope everyone is doing well! I managed to get back on the Friday just gone from my little trip and it was a very nice break for me. I unfortunately still had tonsillitis when I went and it lasted through the duration which sucked, but that aside it was real nice to have some company and be able to do things so it makes it all the more sadder that I'm now back here with nobody, hehe! The tonsillitis typically decided to get better on the day that I left which is the usual bullshit I'd expect, but on the plus side it's now fully gone and I can finally drink liquids without immense pain! =D

I'm currently dreading the upcoming week with a passion. I can't say why on this public entry, but I'm not going to have a very pretty week. Because of this crappy week, which starts today, I'm probably not going to be in a very happy mood and so I might not be online much if at all... but I doubt people would care about that much either way.

Still got no news on the job that I interviewed for so I'm hoping that might bring some good news. If it doesn't then I'll just be right back where I started and will probably just bang my head against the wall repeatedly or something as I'd have more chance of getting a job that way than the usual methods. Of course all of this is so that I can save up enough money to move out, but I've even started to wonder whether or not that will make me feel any happier with life. Sure, I'll have my own place and stuff... but I'll be even more isolated and alone than I am here and that will definitely not help me. This whole situation I'm in just seems to be all one big joke and I'm not the least bit amused about any of it. I didn't think that all these things that people take for granted was too much to ask for, but apparently it is... go figure, huh?

Anyway... I think that's all I should post up here for now. I have to figure out what to do with the upcoming week that won't involve me curling up in the corner and bolting myself away from the world.

Take care and be good!

Kit.

Greetings and hugs!

Hope everyone is doing well this week! I was meant to have updated my LJ a good few days ago but I've been beyond the term 'out of it' for the whole week! I'm sure a few of you probably noticed I was away a lot on MSN or just not online at times when I usually would be and it's due to the absolutely crap illness I've been suffering from. =(

I felt a little iffy last Sunday and I figured the tiredness was just because i'd fixed my sleepy pattern and my body just wasn't used to it yet... I was proven severely wrong, hehe! Since the day after experiencing the drowsiness, I've also had an exceptionally high fever, massive pressure on my head, lost my appetite and even had a health scare that was very unfamiliar to me on top of all of those that's a bit too personal to put up on here.  I've not slept well in 4 days because every time I try to sleep my body would perspire all of my water out of my body and I couldn't sleep because of it which isn't something I can say I've experienced before.

I'm not a frequent visitor to my GP for a few reasons I guess, but in this instance, along with the little new health scare I picked up, I decided to go see him and just had my appointment earlier on today. Turns out I had a female GP this time around who was covering I think for someone and she was ever so nice. She tracked down in no time that I have tonsillitis. Funny enough the bad throat symptom only just turned up today... interesting, hehe! She also gave me a good checking over elsewhere as well, mainly for the other little scare I'd had. Turns out everything was just fine and she was really calm and nice with me. I'm currently on antibiotics now which should hopefully clear up the throat infection and I guess I just have to hope that the fever subsides tonight, if not real soon, so I can get some sleepy! =)

Hopefully I'll be well enough mid-weekend to be able to get myself ready properly for my job interview on Monday. I passed the selection tests a few weeks ago for the DWP and so now I just need to brush up a few questions and hope that I can be confident (and kwoot!) enough for them to give me one of the many jobs going! Would be so great if I get this! =)

After the interview I'm going down south for an unknown period of time to visit a very good friend of mine so I'll be offline probably for the whole duration, so if for some reason you need to speak with me just ringie or text!

A big thanks to everyone who reassured me when I was ill because I was a big scaredy cat! You all get to say "I told you so!" now! ^^

Take care and be well! =)

Kit.

Hope everyone is doing okay this week.

I've had a pretty bad time of it lately and so I haven't posted here in a while... but today it got a whole lot worse when I got the terrible, albeit slightly late, news that one of my friends (who is also an ex of mine) had passed away late last month. I had no idea until I was told by a friend in a passing conversation... =(

I hope they're in a happier place now... you'll be missed very much. =(

Kit.

Heya everyone!

Hope your all fine and well! If not then I hope it picks up soon for you!

As some people might (or might not) have noticed... I wasn't at the Chester meet like I said i would be. I did post real quickly on the UKFur forums about it but I don't expect anyone read it.

So what happened? Well some of you have already found this out, and to be honest I'm not up to posting it up here in full because it would seriously take too long to describe how shit the whole thing was, but I basically ended up having some of the shittest days I've had this year. I was set to come up to the meet until some 'lonely' fur who shall remain nameless here decided he wanted to come get me from down south for company. As I thought this was all legitimate etc. I couldn't really say no... after all if he'd come all the way up here to get me I couldn't turn him down because that would have made me feel bad for the guy. So I ended up having to cancel my furmeet arrangement which also knocked out seeing some friends of mine obviously.

I couldn't have made a f*cking worse choice!

To sum it up in a nutshell, the guy was completely ignorant to me (no talking or anything) and left me pretty much hanging on the bed watching TV all f*cking day and night. I said I'd keep this short so I won't go into any other details of how crap my days away were, but rest assured he f*cking succeeded in making me feel worse than I do when I'm at home... I would have rather stayed here on my own it was that bad. Gotta congratulate the guy though... he showed me a whole new level of f*cking someone over that I never knew existed. That's what I got as someone who took the time to go make an apparently 'lonely' fur feel better.

Thankfully I had some of my nice friends to calm me down a little about that event so thanks very much for that. What's scary about the whole thing is that even though I was real upset about being treated like that, I actually can now just let it slip my mind just like that because I'm so used to people doing it to me... I hope all those people are happy with themselves and that you got some kind of joyous kick outta f*cking me around because if you didn't then it was both our times you wasted, not just mine.

I've been getting no replies to the jobs as per usual, too. I'm more than qualified to do the jobs I'm applying for but the businesses in this area are so up their own arse that they can't even be bothered to f*cking email me. It's their loss I guess... but that doesn't make me any happier that I'm still unemployed and unable to even begin the process of moving out into the world on my own.

Here's hoping that things might eventually pick themselves up somehow. I'm not going to flop down and sleep on it and hope something magically appears, but I feel I do need that little bit of luck to happen for me. =(

That's all I think I can muster for the time being. For those who I unfortunately missed at the meet I'm terribly sorry. I did want to go but obviously manipulation is still a point that I'm a bit weak on...

Take care and smile for me!

Kit.

Hiya everyone!

Hope your all doing well and set for a nice weekend! I'm getting slowly better so I should be able to attend the next meet in Chester without any problems! =)

In the mean time I've updated my picture gallery here on LJ! Here's what I've done:

• Uploaded the August 2007 London Furmeet gallery [Link]
• Uploaded the January 2008 Chester Furmeet gallery (only one picture, sorry!) [Link]
• Uploaded the Misc. Pics gallery [Link]
• Uploaded the Pets gallery [Link]
• Removed a few pictures from various furmeet galleries. These aren't really noticeable! =)

To get to the root of my pictures gallery, you can follow the link on my profile page, or go to http://pics.livejournal.com/xeriouxi instead! I'll try to update the galleries more often and maybe get another update done tomorrow!

Take care and keep in touch! =)

Kit.

Hope everyone's doing well this week! Once again I'm not able to post anything to jump for joy about so do feel more than free to not bother reading what will most likely end up being a stupid rant again...

I'm still jobless after what's now been over 3 months and still companies are just not bothering their fucking arses replying to me. I'm also getting sick to death of being used for things, too. I'm not going into any more about that last part but it's getting on my bloody nerves.

I've fallen pretty ill so I might end up being in my bed for more than usual this week. I can't eat anything, struggle to sleep, and have constant paranoid and shitty thoughts go through my head. Not one single person today even bothered to say hello to me which has just made me feel like I may as well not fucking exist. I have put effort into trying to communicate more with people but obviously, like all things I seem to do, it ends up falling flat on it's arse.

I've also got a problem that I found out not long ago that I'll have to go see the doctor about and probably will have to end up having some form of surgery for... that's nothing that I want to go into here though.

So if there's anything that someone wants to throw at me then now's your best time. Those who know what happened to me in 2006 will now know that it's coming back and if it hits me like it did then I'm going to be even more fucked up than I am now.

All that's left for me to do is try my hardest to find a job, support my family as best I can with that job... move out and hope that something comes along that might bring who I used to be back. It's getting harder to get that list started because my body is slowly shutting itself down on me especially since I got this illness, but there's nothing else to do anymore aside from that. I can't even step outside easily anymore because I look like a train wreck. When you can't go out to the local shops because you're that self-critical about yourself then it's something to worry about...

Weel that's all the lovely fun stuff that's happened since the last lovely update here.

Have a better one!

Kit.

Someone. Please. Steal. Me. XD

Hope everyone's doing all fine! I been bored off my skull this week and I'm prepared to be even more bored the next week, too! This sucks! =P

Unfortunately my time with XP seems to have ended abruptly because the wireless support absolutely sucks, and so I gotta go back to the demonic RAM-eater known as Vista again... which means hours of updates and installations all with the lovely UAC asking if I'm positive I want to do what I told it to... XD

Still no job news as of yet, either... but I'm starting to sort out my plans of moving out for when I do get a job. A good friend of mine who I went to see for a while today showed me how cheap the accommodation was in certain parts of the UK, and even if I don't manage to find myself a flatmate to share with I'll still be willing to move out of here hopefully sometime this year! ^^

Hmmmm what else is there... oh yeah! I got my 2 replacement DVD-RW drives and they both work fine! I feel awkward having 2 as I'm not really going to be burning two things at once... ah well that's just my fault for not wanting a blank space where the other broken one has been taken out! XD

Well that's about all that's happened this week... I hope things can pick up for me soon as it's getting pretty lonely out here. A lot of people might see me as wanting to stay in my room like a hermit and enjoy the comfort but they'd be mistaken. I figured out that I have Social Anxiety Disorder (also known as Social Phobia) and it's the reason I'm so shy when talking a lot, why I can't call people on the phone, and why I'm extremely self-conscience about myself all the time and scared that I'll make mistakes that people will look down at me for... and it's what I think is the cause of the random depressions I have. I'm slowly trying to overcome this, but I'm still a bit of a distance away from overcoming it. Heck, I'm even scared to answer calls on my mobile if I don't know who's calling incase I say something I'm not meant to say or something. You remember that kid in class who was the shy one and didn't talk much? That was who I was, but I would have given anything to be able to not have had these inhibitions about how I percieve myself in other people's eyes. Maybe when I get my chance to escape from here I can try to be who I want to be and not this desolate figure who can't keep his smile up as much as he wants to...

Take care and be well!

Kit.

Wheeeee! =D

Hope everyone is doing okay and well! Unfortunately there are times when you might not be how I am hoping for a magnitude of reasons. Whether it's been a bad day, bad week, or even if you just feel like you need that little giggle in your day just to make it all the more happier, I've listed my top 5 funny videos on YouTube to hopefully make you giggle like crazy!

And without further ado, here they are in descending order! They're all funny (in my eyes) but I've tried to put them in order of funniness! XD

Number 5: To kickstart the list off, I've put Gary Kasparov doing a press conference in Russia! Why would this be funny? Well he and (most of) the audience weren't expected a suprise guest! Contains adult-orientated material. NSFW.

Number 4: Straight in at number 4 is Speak Out with Ken Sander. This was a live call-in show that was aired in 1990. Unfortunately for Ken, he's got a number of callers who aren't going to be calling in for the subject matter! Contains strong language. NSFW.

Number 3: At number 3 is a prime example of how contagious laughter can be! A model is caught falling over her stupidly awkward shoes twice walking down the catwalk, and the news team break out into a gigglefit about it!

Number 2: This one's been on my LJ before, but I found it so hilarious I had to put it up here again! It's insanely random! Watch what happens when a contestant presses the button after being told "NO!" by Bob! XD

Number 1: It was a hard choice to order this list, but this one definitely gets the number 1 spot because it just makes my eyes water every time! Those who know who Chris Pirillo is will probably recall that he did the Call-for-Helpathon on tech-tv when it existed. However, after 15 hours non-stop, he suddenly begins to crack! =P

Hope you all enjoyed the randomness! Laughter is so contagious and it's amazing what it can do for you! If they helped you out, be sure to bookmark the page so you can pop back to it for more giggles! =P

Take care and be well! Lotsa hugs! =D

Kit.

Waves and hugs! =D

Hope everyone's all fine and well! It's been yet again another long time since I updated here, but as you'll find out below it wasn't my fault this time! Honest! XD

Firstly, before I start emptying my mind out, I'd like once again to apologise to everyone who is on my friends list and therefore may have seen the last 2 posts before this. It was just something I had to get off my chest so I hope you can try to ignore them! It's not often I get like that so I'm sorry! =)

Now... why haven't I updated, I hear you ask so desperately! Well, as the subject title suggests, it's Virgin Media taking the piss! I've been with Virgin way before they unfortunately took over ntl: a few moons ago, and I didn't have too many issues with this until last Saturday. For some stupid reason my connection became virtually non-existent, and I was lucky to be able to get the the Google website, let alone signing onto my LJ or using Live Messenger. I emailed them promptly and they said they was aware of the issue and would be sorting it out as soon as possible and all that kinda stuff. It wasn't until I finally, after much modem unplugging, got onto their setvice status page that I noticed that half the country suddenly had broadband problems! They were popping up all over the place, and one I noticed was the whole of Yorkshire had completely been cut off! Needless to say, I still had problems days later, only to find out after my second complaint that they found no problems after testing my equipment from off site! Obviously someone was taking me for an idiot, so after 4 days or so of bullshit connectivity, I decided to ditch them and go for O2 broadband instead. I'll be getting 20mb instead of the 4mb I currently have with Virgin (though it was meant to be upgraded sometime in February to 8mb) and I'll be paying only £15 compared to the £25 Virgin charge! I get a £5 discount because I use O2 on my mobile so it was meant to be £20. I can't fault that, and I've already got my modem sent to me so now all I'm waiting for is the line to be activated which should be sometime early next week and I'll be able finally to enjoy a faster and hopefully more reliable connection! I'm still, however, pushing Virgin to get it in their heads that I'm cancelling with them. Their 'customer service' seems to keep spitting out information requests to fix my problem, but if they can't even see there's a problem then I don't really want their unreliable service! Luckily it seems to have been fixed a little now... hence why I can post this, hehe! I say a little bit because the speeds are still slow at downloading, but as long as I can get to Virgin's site to complain it's good! So, it's a big f*** you to Virgin Media! You'll not be getting my custom for anything no more! I'd bite ya if I could! Rawr! =P

I've also been hit with a dodgy DVD-RW, too! Now I gotta splash out more money that I don't have in order to get a replacement. Hopefully I can get it sent next day sometime next week in time for me to once again fix up my PC! It was during this time that I decided to see about how the Linux world was benefitting from the disasterous Vista release from Microsoft. I moved back to XP a few weeks ago because I couldn't handle Vista's issues anymore, but it was then that I decided to see if the alternatives would benefit me. Wanna know how I got on? I'll put it in a cut so that I don't bore people who really couldn't give two craps about it! =D


I still haven't got myself a job yet which is a shame. I've been applying like crazy but most companies don't even bother to reply so obviously I'm being really unlucky in hitting all the assheads, hehe! I was hoping if I was real lucky that I might have a job before the next meet and therefore be able to attend it, but alas that wasn't what has happened so I'll have to skip this one, unfortunately. Hooray for another boring indoor weekend! XD

Oh, and just something I thought I'd share here... I was walking back from the shops the other day and I don't know why this hadn't hit me before today, but one of the road construction signs said: "CAUTION: RAISED MANHOLES." I Lol'd, as they say!

Phew... that was a bloody long post! I'm sure I got the main random stuff off my chest so that should be enough punishing reading for you! Muahahaha! =)

Well I shall bid you all farewell for the moment! Take care and be good! ^_^

Kit.

Hello again, blog reader people! XD

I hope you all had a lovely weekend! If you were at the furmeet in Manchester on the weekend I'm sure you'll have had a fantastic one like myself! It's definately been one of the best meets I've been to and I was so glad I decided to go in the end! I met a lot more people this time around because I pushed myself to try and get more involved, and in return I got a huge confidence boost from it all, both from the old and new friends that I made there! Was also great to meet up with the people who I hadn't seen in ages! Thanks to the people who organised that meet and thanks especially to those who made me feel really welcome... I won't forget this anytime soon! =)

Unfortunately I was so caught up in the event that I didn't really get to take that many pictures, but I'll be getting around to uploading the missing pictures from my ScrapBook sometime in the very near future! =)

Just also a quick heads up that I won't be online tomorrow (Tuesday) for most, if not all, of the day. Yes, I was meant to be doing my PC today, but it's been rescheduled (again) to tomorrow, so I'll make sure I get it all done and dusted by then! I suck at organisation! =P

Well that's just about it for today! Hope you all have a nice week! =)

Lotsa hugs and stuff! =)

Kit.

Wheeeeeeeeeeee! Hello again! =D

Hope that everyone is doing well and having a nice week! For those who are fortune to have a job, it should be your last day tomorrow so I hope you have a big smile when you leave on Friday afternoon! =D

I've decided to change my plans a little in regards to the furmeet I'll be attending on Saturday. I'll be staying the night and so won't be back until Sunday afternoon sometime, and seeing as my PC needs to have a bit of a revamp I think I'll probably be offline until Tuesday night I think! I'm actually really looking forward to going! I was a bit nervous and hesitant at the idea but I've survived them before and so I hope that I can meet people there, and if anyone else is going who knows me I'll be hoping that we can bump into each other at some point because it will have been absolutely ages since I will have seen you!

I also found out some really great news about my pet, too! My snuggly guinea pig Mia had a lump on her side and I was so scared that it was cancerous and that she'd go prematurely... but apparently because she eats a huge amount of grass when I put her outside it's common for them to have a kinda fat lump on their side which is what it probably is! I hope that gives me lots more pet and stroke time with her! =)

Well this should be my last update here until next week. I'll try to take some piccies and actually use the ScrapBook feature on LJ again seeing as it was last year since it was accessed by me! Take care over the weekend whatever your doing!

Lotsa hugs and licks and stuff! =)

Kit.

Wheeeeee! Yep, I'm still here with my usual delayed post... XD

Hope everyone is all good and stuff! I'm sure everyone enjoyed the extra day off on Monday! I, personally, ended up working flat out on my PC again which was uber boring... took about 9 hours to get everything installed, tweaked and ready... and then one little thing buggered up and now I'm to do it all over again! CURSE YOU, ADOBE! XD

Still no luck on finding a job yet, though I'm still looking hard for anything that comes up! I've also decided to make a few key changes in my life too which will hopefully start to have an effect pretty soon and if they go to plan I'll hopefully have +5 happiness points! Wheeee! =D

I've decided to tag along to the Manchester meet this coming Saturday, too! I haven't been to one in a while and I thought since I'm not doing anything else I may as well come and show people how Pepsi can affect your hyper levels and stuff! I'll also try to be more of a social cat, so if you see me when I arrive then come say hello as the chances are I won't have seen you in ages or never met you but will still have a similar reaction to not seeing you in ages! =D

Be good and take care! =D

Kit.

Wheeee! Hello random people! =)

Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend! I'm insanely bored as usual so I'm not having a very good one... =(

I was so bored that I decided to read through the classifieds section in Micro Mart... and some of them are absolutely shocking! Here are a few of them that are just nuts! I copied them out just as they were in the magazine... complete with stupidly insane typo's and terrible grammar and punctiation... where there is any! XD

CLASSIC IMAC

2 Classic Imacs for sale - colour - Blueberry (I think) with keyboard and mouse One operational - CD Burner, Mac OS9 Airport card. Very good condition One has dead power supply, but is otherwise excellent - DVD Player, Mac OS 9, Airport card. Suitable for spares or repair Buiyer will probably have to collect, as poostage is likely to be heavy £40.00

Kit says: LOL! What the hell is poostage!? XD

SATA HARD DRIVE OR LARGE IDE HARD DRIVE TO YOUR OWN WINDOWS 98SE OR BETTER PC

Sata Hard Drive or large IDE Hard Drive to your own Windows 98SE or Better PC provided you have a free PCI Slot and space 4 your Hard Drive get over the limitations of 137 Mb yours 4 £17.99 including Postage [Contact details removed]

Kit says: What the bloody hell does all that mean!? I need a PCI slot for a hard drive now? And I got over the limitations of 137mb back in the last decade like everyone else! And please don't tell me that amongst all that confusion you actually plan to sell a 137mb hard drive for that price!? ARE YOU NUTS!? XD

WINDOWS 95

on cd with licence key. Buyer pays postage. Bargain £25.00

Kit says: WHAT!? I bet I could get a copy of that with a bloody machine to go with it for 25p! XD

WANTED CASH WAITING. 12"1 SCREEN IBM LAPTOP SCREEN

Must be VGC. Will take dead laptop if screen is good. Phone me please, evenings Mon-Fri.

Kit says: How can you be sure the screen is good if the laptop is broken? XD

COMPAQ ARMADA E500

Wanted, Compaq Armada E500 laptop - doesn't have to be working - but does have to be cheap ! [Contact details removed]

Kit says: What f*cking use is it to you if it's broken!? And define what level 'not working' is! If I throw a sledge hammer into the screen and pour a random sticky substance all over the keys does that mean you still want it? XD

Well that's pretty much all I've done today... read random things and wait for bedtime! Tomorrow will probably be the same (if not worse) so I might just end up mowing the grass with my teeth or something... XD

Have a nice weekend! =D

Kit.

Hope everyone is doing well! I'm feeling much better than what I felt when I last posted here which is an uber good thing... but saying that I'd hit rock bottom then anyway so I couldn't see too many ways for it to get much worse, hehe! I've still got problems here and there to take care of, but it's slowly improving which is good.

I managed today to recover some of the lost project that I was working on for my next YouTube video. As the description (borrowed from the YouTube video information) will tell you below, I lost most of the work I'd done... but luckily I'd stumbled across a backup of some of the beta work I was doing on it so I managed to upload what I could of it! Hope you enjoy what would have been my next project... what's there of it, anyway!



To quote the YouTube description:

"This was originally meant to be a full length music video for Advent Children, but unfortunately due to a number of computer problems I had at the time, the almost completed project footage was lost. However, I did manage to recover the first part of the video. It's pretty much what the final version would have looked like and luckily it has the reason that I wanted to make this video in it. I think Jan Hammer is a fantastic musician and can create such wonderful moving music, and after listening to it a few times, the image of Cloud looking up at the sky burned itself into my mind. At about 0:38, when Cloud closes his eyes at the chord change, I felt that it went perfectly with the music and that was the drive to create the project.

I might sometime try to get around to recreating the project if I can find the storyboards for it and so on, but for now here is (unfortunately in WMV quality since I don't have the software I use installed at the moment) the first part of what would have been the latest project I was working on. Enjoy! =)"


Take care and be good! =)

Kit.

Just a heads up for anyone out there who even bothers with me anymore that I'm probably not going to be online very much. I have major problems in many areas of my life and I need to try and clear the air around me otherwise I'll end up having another breakdown which I really can't be dealing with at the moment. I'm not going to list anything up here because a lot of it is not really something I want to share. Hopefully I'll be able to post back here real soon to say I'm feeling at least a little better... who knows.

Take care.

Kit.

Wheeeeee!

Hope that everyone who has for some reason or another stumbled on this post is fine and well! I know it's been yet again another gap in the proposed 'frequent updates' that I said I'd try to do more of, but as you mightt have guessed I've had random problems popping up left, right and centre as usual! That just sucks, hehe!

Well, it's been over 2 weeks since I last posted here and quite a few things have happened. My PC is slowly starting to die on me which is a crying shame as I really don't have any money at all to fix it, let alone get a new one. I also ordered the Microsoft Habu gaming mouse and the Microsoft Reclusa gaming keyboard which will be arriving tomorrow sometime so that's hopefully the last of the diabolical keyboard/mouse scenario. For those who don't know about that, I've been through 2 lots of wireless keyboard/mouse bundles over the past week or so and both have turned out utter shite. After trying the Microsoft Laser Desktop range I decided to try Logitech again, because I sold my old Logitech (wired) set to my brother for a real small price. Shockingly... IT WAS SHIT TOO! I decided therefore to stick to wired, and I hope these 2 products (which have technology by Razer in them) will be the things I'm after. Unfortunately there's already a little problem with them before they get here, however... and that problem is that they both have blue backlights. Yes, before you say I'm silly for ordering them, I did want the backlights... but I can't turn off the keyboard backlight, and since I usually leave my PC on at night for downloading then there's a slight issue that I might not get the best sleeping nights. I can turn off the mouse lights no problem... but I really don't think there's much point if the bloody keyboard is gonna be glazing up onto the ceiling all the time, hehehe!

I'm also looking forward to (hopefully) be getting a DVD tomorrow through the mail which I'll be getting ahead of the official release date of May 6th which will keep me happy for about... 2 hours, hehe!

On top of the 2 (or 3 if you wanna be picky with the amount of products I'll get) slightly good things that will happen this week, there's an uber big bitch of a thing that'll happen on Friday, as that marks the day that I'll be re-formatting my PC and putting everything back on it. That shouldn't be too hard, right? Balls to that! I have to go through my whole .mp3 collection (which, being a specialist collector in certain genres including movie scores, is an awful lot) and add a specific tag to them all in order to get them to work right in Winamp. Yes, I decided to move to Winamp again after goodness knows how many years! I had the very first ever version of that program back in the days of Windows 95 and I fell in love with the newest version... plus WMP11 has been really pissing me off in it's .mp3 playback performance so I wanted to go with another music player anyway... so I'll probably be offline until Saturday night else I'll get distracted real easily... =P

I went out again the Friday just gone to stay over with someone for a few days. It wasn't a bad weekend but I got ill again from the long train journey and was sniffling all weekend which sucked! And if that wasn't bad enough, a short walk to the shops turned into a nightmare as the clouds decided to heavily piss all over us and we had to go into a pub and drink the horrible draught Coke which was accompanied by the lovely taste of washing-up liquid in the glass! IKKY! >.<

I'm still hunting for a new job still, too. The one I went for in Chester ended up with me not getting it because I didn't have experience... I f*cking hate that stupid 'Catch-22' scenario! I can't get the f*cking experience if I don't have the goddamn job to get the experience in! ANY EMPLOYERS OUT THERE LISTENING!? As Gordon Ramsay would say... "f*ck me!"

Phew... that was a little but of a rant there! Glad I got that off my chest, hehehe! Well I'm still looking for a job for those who are wondering if I've slowed down looking since that little setback. =)

Well I think that just about sums up my fruitful life during the past 2 weeks or so. I have zero money still thanks to the JSA peeple being assholes as usual. I hope they don't do another classic f*ck-up and keep me hanging for months on end for something to go into my bank account like last year... else I'll be forced to go down to Canterbury and bite the bloody manager! And yes, I still remember the location of the main JSA operations centre because I kept having to listen to people tell me to contact the bloody place every week! XD

I should be online around Saturday evening or so... but I might not because it's usually a waste of time as nobody really speaks to me anymore so it depends on how bored I get, I guess! Hehe!

Take care!

Kit.

Rawr, mrowf and other random salutations! =)

Hope all is well with said reader, hehe! It's been a while since I posted on here... again! XD

For those who perused the previous entry, I'm feeling much better now. I have job offers coming in quite steadily, have decided to not let people use me anymore like I'm some kind of slave, and I managed to pull myself together pretty fast thanks to some really good friends of mine. I thank them very much, and also those who left those nice comments... they helped me quite a bit because I wasn't being very social in terms of using IM clients to speak with people because I wouldn't have been any fun to speak with, hehe!

In addition to all the help and improvements listed above, I managed to get the chance to visit a friend's place last weekend, too! It was a really lovely time! It's nice to have people who will help you through the rough patches, and he was very helpful and made me forget about all the crap stuff that I'd had previously and I can't wait until I get to visit again! =)

Well I have a 2 hour interview next Tuesday in Chester to look forward to now which I'm going to try and be very optimistic for! I packed all agencies in now... ironically the buggers tried to call me this morning but they can get pretty much the same treatment that they gave me... they can f*ck off! XD

I hope everyone has a lovely start to their weekend! I won't be doing anything this weekend (SHOCK!) but I'm sure I'll find something to keep me occupied... I got bored of being bored! ^^

Take care and stay safe! Many hugs!

Kit.